Tiny Violins

Has it really been two weeks since I posted anything? I feel sad that this blog is turning into a once a month post. And I don't even have any kids or pets or a 60-hour-a-week job with tons of travel to make good excuses.

In all honesty, I've been battling physical pain for the past two months, and let me just tell you that I have new understanding of how near impossible it would be to offer counseling to someone battling chronic pain. Or why they might readily turn to pain medication. Or the way chronic pain can consume your thoughts and rob you of sleep and make life miserable.

So, I just haven't felt like writing, and besides working and making the house run I haven't been able to put thoughts together on anything other than the way I've been feeling, and I know no one wants to read about that.

(Even updating you all right now I'm imagining the world's tiniest violin playing the world's saddest song. Woe is me!)

But...BUT...I feel I'm on the path to healing even though the doctors haven't figured out what's wrong yet...and may never. Once again, God has used acupuncture to heal me. It's been two weeks of a new treatment that makes me feel normal again. Don't ever take feeling normal for granted. I had a slight setback for one day, but now it's back to normal again thanks to my doctor's prayers, lots of other people's prayers, and divinely-guided acupuncture.

I don't enjoy feeling physically tormented, but it's hard to realize this little thing bothers me so much when other people I know are dealing with brain tumors, fatal diseases, a tsunami that destroyed entire towns, and nuclear radiation that will affect generations of people.

And then I'm thankful that I can breathe, see, hear, and am not facing imminent death.

I don't know if it's the lingering doubt that I'll actually be cured and feel better all the time, or the exhaustion that lack of sleep and this ridiculous Daylight Saving Time bring, or perhaps being spoiled by a fabulous trip to Hawaii...but we should be making plans for an anniversary trip and I'm feeling less than enthusiastic.

I mean, it will have to be a short trip, and it needs to be within driving distance, and it needs to involve a Hilton hotel because that's where we can stay for free. Unfortunately, we live in Dallas and no destination within driving distance seems exotic or remotely like paradise.

Paradise. I've been there. It's called Hawaii.

So, if anybody has fun ideas just let me know!